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It Takes a Village

Happiest of Monday’s to y’all! It’s going to be a beautiful week, full of lots of things and I just needed a moment to reflect on this past weekend. So much happened.

 

Saturday I wrapped up my mentorship at Salty Dog Yoga & Surf. I could not be more thankful for the opportunity to get feedback about my teaching from the seasoned yogi’s that I work with. Such a blessing to have their leadership and skills to help me learn. From now on I am a full fledged member of the staff and I’m so excited to continue to grow in this space. I am really enjoying getting to know the people who practice there as well. Bunch of awesome people. And I have to say, the flow I put together for them was by far the best one I’ve done to date.

Sunday morning I went to Island Beverage to lead a yoga class. Not a great turn out but that was probably due to the insanity of the half marathon taking place on the island yesterday. It was muggy! and I felt so bad for the folks running. When they signed up for it they probably thought it would be a cool run, temperature wise. Either way, it looked like there was a good turn out for that. Way to go half marathoners!

After I was done there I made my way home to grade 50 bibliographies. They were fairly terrible, and I’m sad to see that people have no idea how to evaluate the sources they use for research. However, once I was finished with those I made my way to the Yoga Village Festival! Such a nice turn out and the day cooled down a bit, and there was a nice breeze too. I got to meet so many people! Networking isn’t my strongest side, but I was in charge of Svasana assists at the “Relaxation Station” and because of that people really enjoyed hanging out with me. But who wouldn’t? You get a massage and to lay on the grass under some majestic pine trees! So perfect. I will say that touching so many people is exhausting. Having all of that energy pass through you and expending your own energy put me out by the end of the festival. To the point that making dinner was quite a task. It was so nice to see people come together to support this organization. It is such a beautiful part of the community and having so much positive energy in one space was inspiring. I can’t even begin to tell you how loving the space was.

As for the week ahead I’m going to a book club meeting today at noon and we’re reading the Untethered Soul. So awesome. I am really enjoying this book. I’ve never been much for books you find in the “self help” section of the book store, but honestly I haven’t been able to put it down. Learning how to not let things bother you. How to just let it go and when you feel like things are getting under your skin to just breathe and watch it go away. Something that I am really working on in my life. I let too many things get under my skin and drive me insane or make me mad, and it is unnecessary. I look forward to the discussion this afternoon.

This past weekend was also Fall break from my university job. So nice to, for the first time in 4 years, put my email on “Out of Office” and not deal with anything from Thursday to Sunday. I created a boundary. A real one and it was awesome! Everything was still there when I logged in today and I handled it all pretty swiftly. Back to the classroom tomorrow!

Well, I suppose the rest of my To Do list won’t do itself today, unless I actually get going. Welcome to my new followers! I’m thrilled to have you, and I hope to see some of your faces in a class soon!

Much love to all!

Namaste ❤

Fall-ing into place

I love Autumn. Granted it is supposed to be 90 degrees today and tomorrow, but then down into the 70s. I’m excited about October. So busy! Lots of yoga to teach. I am growing my private client base and it is delightful. I have a lot on my plate in addition to work. I’m packing to move. Granted, I’ve packed a lot already! I’m weeding out things that I don’t have space for or the energy for anymore. Sometimes I sit and think, what would my life be like without this table. Fuck it. My life will be fine without the table, because it isn’t necessary. It was purchased 5 years ago for $5 at a yard sale. I think it has lived up to its responsibility. Things like that are what I am dealing with. I love purging all of this shit. I’m not going to let the past hold me back anymore. I’m leaving it by the dumpster (or giving it away) and I couldn’t be more excited to do it.

While i have plenty to worry about, I’m finding myself far less concerned about things that I could be freaking out about. Today I drew a card. The one I got was “Expectation” and basically suggested that I spend less energy worrying about expectations and just let life happen. It’s so true. There are some aspects of my life that I expected things to happen much different. These days I do my best not to worry about what it looks like or worry about pushing things so they go faster, but just waiting and anticipating less. Waiting and enjoying the moment. It’s such a serious blessing to have this time and all the life experiences.

And just like that, it all seems to be falling into place. Just. Like. That.

Dedication

I just made myself a smoothie. Blueberries, mango, celery, basil, spinach, hemp seeds, honey, and almond milk. Blend blend for a delicious breakfast. The basil really makes it delightful and cooling. I was reading about the health benefits of basil. Lots of good stuff come out of this little herb, and it really tastes delicious in a predominantly veggie based smoothie. It adds its own sweetness.

So, dedication is a real thing. It is so hard to dedicate time to yourself for the benefit of health and wellness. My first coach said to write it down in your calendar. Schedule it, like you do everything else. It’s a great idea and worked well for me, and still does. I’ve had the same workout/exercise routine for a couple of years now. It was hard to get that routine down pat. It was hard to dedicate the time to making myself move, but I did it. I was paying for it, I will make time. So I did. The hard part for me now is making time to add stuff to the already routine I have. I have been gaining and losing the same 20lbs for the past year and I am over being on this yo-yo plateau. Yes, I still see changes in my body, but I’m ready to dedicate the extra time it is going to take in order to actually get off this back and forth.

Can I be completely honest here? I have no freaking idea what it is like to be an average sized person. I’m not even talking about being skinny, but just like an average size 12. As long as I can recall I have shopped in the plus sized section. I know this sounds terrible, but I find comfort in this section. Because I don’t have as many options. Because I don’t actually have to change anything to achieve this section. Yes, I have gone from being a size 28 to a size 18/20. Right now I’m more toward the 20. And yes I am approaching the end of the size spectrum in this section, but I’m still not gone. I linger. Holding on. But what am I holding on for? I tell myself it is because my body just likes it here. My body just likes to be fat. No, my body would probably love it if I wasn’t overweight anymore. Then my skeletal system would get a little bit of a break. My knees especially. What’s the real reason? Because it is easier to just be fat.

Because it is easier to just be fat. The food makes you feel better because it’s loaded with sugar and salt and chemicals that play with your brain. I also really love vegetables and things that are good for me, but sometimes it is just too much work. Sometimes it just doesn’t matter and I’m hungry now. Eat a peanut butter sandwich.

As someone suffering from PCOS, which makes me insulin resistant (I do not have diabetes though, thank God), I should live a very clean food driven life. I should be focused on avoiding grain and things that react as sugar in the body. Grain, alcohol, sugar, and fruit. I like fruit so i will never give it up, and it is good for you, you just have to know when to eat it. There is fruit in my smoothie, just not much in comparison to the vegetables.

I have the tools to accomplish this stuff. I was well on my way in June, but then I got 5 days of IV drip steroids and blew up like a puffer fish. The 15 pounds i lost turned into 20 gained. It is still here. And I’m done with it. I’m getting more work teaching yoga. I’m going to need the proper fuel to sustain throughout the day and keep myself healthy. I have the tools. I have the knowledge. I know what I’m doing because I’ve been doing this for a long ass time. I just have to put the elements together and dedicate the time. So here goes.

I made a new workout schedule. I’m making a grocery list of low carb, satisfying food that I can be happy with. I am taking things one day at a time. My goal is to lose 35lbs in the next 150 days. That will be the end of 2017. I know I can do it. I’ve done it before. I can do it again. Only this time we’re going to keep moving down. It will be mostly food oriented. I’m going to give 100%.

I really try not to pay attention the scale. But sometimes it tells us the truth, even though we don’t want to see it. I know that this is a big long journey and that I should honor that and how far I have come. I do honor that, believe me. I am quite proud of who I am and what I have accomplished. This year especially! I will probably come here to complain about how much I want a cupcake. I will also complain about the heat or something similar which will make me not want to go for a walk. Then I will get mad at myself. Then I will go on a walk. But I will probably stop and write about how mad I am in between.

Today, I would normally be heading to the gym, but I have to go take a tour of a facility where I will be teaching yoga on Thursday nights. It’s apparently an involved building complex. So, I am skipping it to take this tour. I will be coming home to practice my yoga routine sequencing for the week. I have a class Thursday evening and on Sunday morning.

I hope the day is full of magic and positive changes. ❤

RYT200

Wow. My card this morning said “Desire is the beginning of all creation.” This couldn’t be more spot on!

So, last night we graduated from our RYT200. I am mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted. 6 hours of yoga in 2 days. The graduation ceremony, which was beautiful, gave me a new sense of self. As I sit here and think about what to write tears are pooling because I was trying to remember everything that was said, and how much it meant to me. I am in awe of these women. They helped me see just how special I actually am. And I hope that what I had to say to them helped them see how special they really are as well.  Each one of them is so special and unique. I never would have known any of them if I hadn’t taken this training. I am honestly blessed to have gotten the chance to go through this challenge with them. To change our lives forever.

To keep the momentum going I am going to start a yoga book club. I want to facilitate a place for discussion about things we touched on in the training but didn’t have time to dive into all the way. I’ve been spending a lot of time with the Sutras, Yamas and Neamas. I want a place to talk to people about them, discuss what they mean and what they are on a deeper level. I can sit in my own thoughts and just be there, or I can involve others and get different perspectives. Not only will we get the chance to talk about yoga but it will keep us connected. I need these ladies to stay in my life and keep me saturated and inspired. I have no doubt that they will.

In all honesty I am an emotional basket case today. I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m happy, and sad. Full and empty. Rainy and Sunny. I feel like there is so much more for me to do, but I don’t know where to start. I mean, I made the resume, the website, the blog, Facebook page, registered with Yoga Alliance, and graduated from the course. Really at this point I should just go clean my kitchen, shower, and vacuum all the clumps of cat hair my sweet Kaya is leaving all over the house for me. And yet I just sit and reflect. Type these letters into a screen to make words that only do a half ass job of explaining where I am in my own head. Attempting to manifest something spectacular.

I know it will all come into reality on its own, but I’m bad at waiting sometimes, especially when it is something that I really want. But I guess, I should just keep doing the little things. Right? Read the books. Grow my practice. And manifest my own destiny.

To my kula, I just wanted to tell you guys that I couldn’t have done it without you. I will cherish all of the sentiments that you shared with me last night, and when things don’t go right or when I doubt myself I will remember those things and use them to push through the shadows back into the light. I am blessed beyond compare. I miss you guys already.

But, here’s to new adventures!

The Wagon…

I hate the wagon. Getting on and off of it from time to time is super hard on the soul. When you’re on, you feel amazing and love everything. When you’re off you think you love it, but really you just feel tired and gross. Yet, it is so easy to stay off the damn thing. You know why? Because off the wagon there’s cake, or whatever you guilty pleasure is. Mine is cake. Or sugar in general. I wish I had never developed a sweet tooth, as it is the biggest issue I have.

So today is the day I’m putting my self back on the wagon. Yesterday, I made sure to go to the grocery and stock my fridge with yummy things. Lots of veggies, a watermelon, some walnuts and dates (I have to make some date balls asap!), etc. All things that I love to eat. I made a bunch of vinegar salads yesterday. What I mean by that is tomato salad with balsamic vinegar and basil. No cheese for me though. I also made fridge pickles. Just a nice flash pickling of some cucumbers. I made them spicy with red pepper flakes. I hope I don’t burn my face off. It is important for me to have things made and ready for when I get hungry. After I go to the gym today I plan on finishing the rest of the food prep. This morning was a total win. I made cauliflower hash browns, wilted spinach, and scrambled eggs. I need some solid fuel for my workout later. Oh, and it can always go without saying there is coffee. Lots of coffee.

I’m very excited about starting my journey as a yoga teacher. Like, an official one. July 16 I will lead my first class. There is a lot more going into it than just a first class, it is a project. I am so thrilled to be working with the group of ladies that I am to organize our day of teaching together. It makes my soul feel good! I won’t divulge anymore here now, but there will be more in the future!

Graduation day is July 23. I still feel like I know nothing! But I know that a lot of it comes with practice. It is so much fun to anticipate what the future will bring now. I wasn’t really sure what was going to happen in my life, and I still have no idea, BUT I do know it will involve yoga. In some way, shape, or form.

One last thing before I wrap this up. My dearest friend and her family have come upon some difficult times. Her step father, a really amazing man, has been diagnosed with a very serious type of cancer. Things are uncertain right now, but he could sure use some loving and healing light sent in his direction. Because he’s such a gem, he’s been handling the news with grace and laughter. I admire him for his courage. And I thank you for any efforts you make.

Everyone have a beautiful weekend. ❤

Dreams

I have always loved the decoding of a dream. I don’t always remember my dreams, but more so in the past 6 months I remember quite vividly things that happened. Last night was one of those moments.

I won’t go into all the strange details, but there were lots of waves. Some of the waves we had to make our way through (I forget who was with me in the dream, but I had a companion). Some of the waves came up and broke on the shore near us. Some broke around other people, but I never got hit by any.

So, I did some research, because that is what I do. Waves in a dream represent our emotions. To dream about the ocean is symbolic of spiritual refreshment, renewal, Or you can see it as being empowered and having a positive outlook on life.

In the dream experience I was always trying to get to someone, with my companion. At once I was trying to get to my dad, but he’s the only person I remember. In order to get to him I had to walk in high heels across a weird plastic walkway. It was dented and cloudy white, almost like it was supposed to be snow, but made out of plastic. I assume the shoes are the feminine card, but the plastic, beyond its fake-ness, I have nothing.

Here’s what I’ve come up with based on all of that.

Things are emotional right now. I am going on this path that I have been called toward. I have a sense of spirituality that I have not had since I was a child. This whole experience has brought me to a place of unknowing and uncertainty and of course that is a bit unsettling. All the while, the waves creating some kind of renewed sense. The solstice is coming up, and somehow seems appropriate for this symbolism. All while seeking out my father. Which isn’t really my father, but the character traits that I take from him. He’s quite the savvy when it comes to business, and has taught me a lot in my life. Now would be the time to pull for that knowledge. I have a bridge to cross, and I have picked the wrong footwear. However, in doing so have come more into my feminine energy, which is also something I have to bring to this ocean of emotions.

Or it could be something completely different. I have no idea! But I like what I got from this. Reflecting on things that could be scary in the dream sense, but really mean something far better.

Happy Thursday y’all!

Weekend 7 Recap

I have been waiting for this moment all day. I am finally at a place in my agenda that I can stop, breathe, and just process what is going on in my head.

It has been a busy Monday. Week 5 of Summer Session I is in full swing. So far no major malfunctions! I got the laundry done and some other random chores. I made it back to the gym today too. Not going to lie, it hurt. I’m still coming down from the steroid rounds that I had last week and I feel very heavy. I made it through, but my legs didn’t seem to remember how to jump rope. Hated every moment of the jump rope. I’ll be back to normal feeling soon, so I’ve been told. Exercise will help, even if I struggle through it.

This past weekend I spent with my girls at Yoga for the Planet. I can’t even begin to tell you how sad I will be when it is all over, and we’re not all going to hang out for hours at a time? They’re like family, and I can tell them anything without judgment. Not to mention they have given me so much strength and a sense of confidence in myself that I never knew you could experience. We spent Saturday talking bout the law of attraction. It’s really fascinating, and is just another book added to the amazon cart (One day I’ll just splurge and buy them all!) for the time being, but delightful stuff. The main thing I can tell you is to be specific when you ask for things in this world. Very specific. Otherwise, it won’t end up the way you wanted it to. Also, make sure that while you wait for whatever it is you are asking for, be thankful for where you are. I’m more thankful for where I am right now, than I could possibly imagine.

In addition to attraction we learned about Kundalini Yoga and did a lot of fire breathing. That was fun, and I feel like could give you abs far better than any number of sit-ups. We also did some one on one teaching for an hour. Seemed like a daunting task in the beginning, but at best mine probably was 40 minutes, start to finish. I don’t know how low Evelyn and I sat there talking, so I’m just guessing. It was fun to sit down and have to piece the jigsaw puzzle together for the first time. {I love building puzzles, but I don’ have the table space} Thinking how about how to flow from one to another took some effort, and jumping around the living room. I honestly cannot wait to figure out how to write one that is an hour long. It took me back to my first semester teaching. As I approach the end of year 3, and kick off year 4, I have such a hard time fitting what I want into an hour and fifteen minutes, much less 50. I know that will happen with yoga just as quickly.

I am excited to see what transpires next time. It’s always magical. OH! and we all got a succulent! It was so sweet and now I have a plant, that I will do my best not to kill! 🙂

I’m still finishing the last few pages of “The Power of Now” which I was happy to get to spend time with while at the laundry mat. Side note: As annoying as it is to go to the laundry mat, I enjoy the time I get to read. So, I’m a little on edge today because when I got there it was packed. Normally at 8am on Monday morning, it isn’t packed, but today it was. There were still washers and dryers when I needed them. And thankfully, I had the book to distract me. Focusing on the things at that moment was great. Reading, and also noticing that even though it was crazy busy, I was still fine. Sitting by the window, with the sun on my back, reading. No one got in my way. I didn’t get in anyone else way. It all played out like well orchestrated musical chairs. The anxiety that was creeping up was basically kept at bay for the hour and a half. Then, when it was time to fold things, there was no one there but me. So, it all worked out, even though my anxiety was trying to break down my sanity.

I’ve been trying to use my awareness of myself and the moment in question, instead of trudging around in the past. I am quite thrilled to be doing this, because it really is stress relief. I highly recommend it. Like, giving yourself permission to be over feeling things that hurt you or have haunted you. Giving yourself permission to let the people who wronged you,  go on,  is incredibly powerful. It sounds so simple and trite to a lot of people, I’m sure, but it sets you free. It gives your life so much more meaning and depth. Besides, if we’re so blessed to have the emotion of love, why not show yourself first? And why not forgive those past transgressions? What good are they doing you now? It just making you feel sour on the inside, when you could feel like sunshine and rainbows.

It all seems so simple.

So, because I have some really amazing friends *cough*SamandMichelle *cough* I’m going to dedicate 30 days to doing yoga. I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t practice daily, when I know I should, but I’m going to make it happen. Just so you guys know, starting Wednesday through July 13, is my 30 days. I’m going to try out a bunch of different kinds of classes and see what’s going on in my community yoga centers. I’m excited not to just push myself a little more, but to explore and learn some things. I’ll keep you posted.

I hope Monday is going well for the rest of you. I’ve enjoyed this time collecting some thoughts and sharing a little more with you. ❤

Hello! Welcome!

Good morning All!

I am so excited to be here. I am so excited to be blasting off into this business venture for myself, to someday soon, watch it turn into a fruitful part of my life.

This website will be here to let you in on my journey of finishing my yoga certification, becoming a teacher, and where you can come hang out and practice. There will also be some fun bits of knowledge I learn along the way, in addition to sharing my own life journey with those who wish to read about it.

I have a logo in the works (!!!) and I just assumed a domain name was my next venture. I have a Facebook Page (www.facebook.com/indigoelephantyoga) and will eventually set up an Instagram account and twitter.

I plan to have a YouTube Channel in the future as well, but that will be a bit farther down the road.

Welcome to this journey. I hope you can find some benefit in being part of it with me! Please feel free to join in any conversation, just remember to be respectful of others. This is a place of love and kindness, not judgment or ridicule.

**Namaste!**