Wow. My card this morning said “Desire is the beginning of all creation.” This couldn’t be more spot on!
So, last night we graduated from our RYT200. I am mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted. 6 hours of yoga in 2 days. The graduation ceremony, which was beautiful, gave me a new sense of self. As I sit here and think about what to write tears are pooling because I was trying to remember everything that was said, and how much it meant to me. I am in awe of these women. They helped me see just how special I actually am. And I hope that what I had to say to them helped them see how special they really are as well. Each one of them is so special and unique. I never would have known any of them if I hadn’t taken this training. I am honestly blessed to have gotten the chance to go through this challenge with them. To change our lives forever.
To keep the momentum going I am going to start a yoga book club. I want to facilitate a place for discussion about things we touched on in the training but didn’t have time to dive into all the way. I’ve been spending a lot of time with the Sutras, Yamas and Neamas. I want a place to talk to people about them, discuss what they mean and what they are on a deeper level. I can sit in my own thoughts and just be there, or I can involve others and get different perspectives. Not only will we get the chance to talk about yoga but it will keep us connected. I need these ladies to stay in my life and keep me saturated and inspired. I have no doubt that they will.
In all honesty I am an emotional basket case today. I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m happy, and sad. Full and empty. Rainy and Sunny. I feel like there is so much more for me to do, but I don’t know where to start. I mean, I made the resume, the website, the blog, Facebook page, registered with Yoga Alliance, and graduated from the course. Really at this point I should just go clean my kitchen, shower, and vacuum all the clumps of cat hair my sweet Kaya is leaving all over the house for me. And yet I just sit and reflect. Type these letters into a screen to make words that only do a half ass job of explaining where I am in my own head. Attempting to manifest something spectacular.
I know it will all come into reality on its own, but I’m bad at waiting sometimes, especially when it is something that I really want. But I guess, I should just keep doing the little things. Right? Read the books. Grow my practice. And manifest my own destiny.
To my kula, I just wanted to tell you guys that I couldn’t have done it without you. I will cherish all of the sentiments that you shared with me last night, and when things don’t go right or when I doubt myself I will remember those things and use them to push through the shadows back into the light. I am blessed beyond compare. I miss you guys already.
But, here’s to new adventures!